What are you being?

Forgiving yourself can be a difficult thing. I think it’s hard for people because they know themselves. It’s easy to say here I go again. It’s the creation of doubt and it can easily force you to forget the power you stand in. Here you are with all the ability and a few resources. Are you resourceful?

I had a dream last night that was a series of people pleasing behaviors. I was always getting lost and happy to follow whoever acknowledged me. I typically felt like the police were after me and it was dark most of the time. And then at the end right before I woke up I was on a rugby team. I remember feeling as if I was playing incorrectly. Once I touched the ball, I ran into the middle of what seemed to a hundred white jerseys and I pushed and slammed and pushed. At the end of the run, a hand came and tried to dislodge the ball. I distinctly remember feeling secure and I looked down and only when I felt it necessary did I add another hand and continue to the goal. Footballer references are made as those I pushed against congratulate me. I can’t tell what any of that means but I can say that I remember feeling when I woke up that I wasn’t sure I ran the right way. Even after they congratulated me I was still reeling in doubt. i recognized this right away. I had to press an x on the screen and close that window.