Too old to wait to begin

I forgot that you wouldn’t respect me. Or yourself for that matter. I choked on this reality for the longest time. I swore I would stay away and the very same day I said that, I let you back in.. we’ll actually you broke in. I drove up to my house as you were pulling out with various items stuffed in your car. I chased your car and you came back and we began again. I wanted to prove my worth so badly forgetting that the continuously burning…