The fire

What really happens when you choose the difference and find a balance. Forgiveness? Gratitude? I am thankful. Now that nature has been revealed.. I’m not so troubled by my own. Sometimes I hear you say thank you, but that’s to make the appearance to yourself that gratitude lives where you do. It’s easy to lose focus. I’m grateful that the love bomb only lasted one day. I fought for this fire. Every fucking day. All the years of my life. A warmth to share, something about being good for someone. It has been revealed to me, I can be good for me. For now and always. Besides I cannot allow this to make me slide back into a place of emptiness. It’s almost inappropriate to say that I am in the wild. I am now inside the heart. I am now inside the revolution. I am inside the transformative information. God loves you too. Like Jonah, I am sometimes angry about that.

It is futile to feel so many feelings alone like this. I don’t want them, and I know you won’t have them, you barely have any true feelings of your own. This is me wishing you best. Not the worst. I have spent all my money in Homewood Acres… I cannot wish the worst of me on you. So I wish the best of my limited perception of what that can be. Now I just have to stop sleeping with you.

art credit: Flame Phantom Zailas from Mirrorman ep. 11