I didn’t know but all those things I want, wanted, those seemingly valuable things like shoes in a basket by the front door, I only wanted those thing with her. And if I was afraid of something but found the strength and the courage to do it anyway, whatever it is, I want you to see it because I’m not so invincible anymore. Love and in love, consistent stable and safe… here I was just buying you shoes, bending your spine, rubbing you raw, and I missed out on having you for…
