pluck it out

I could have been stronger, and maybe I was, once. I am sitting on the ground at the point it raised up to meet me, saying in the moment my eyes open “you don’t have to be that expression”

it could be, all those movements, and jerking were the vibration of tantrum. I did not get what I wanted, and I still want it, but will not get it. to improve toward potential, my perspective will need to grow congruent to my experience. I’m not sure that this can be done alone, but it is now the goal beside the goal. a pair of goals. the mad hatter’s hunt for wellness. form a working alliance, stay committed to it, and manifest through truth an unconditional positive self regard. the real beauty is developing unconditional positive regard for others, however, this is a bizarre understanding to reach with myself. I might have been ignoring the reflection, ignoring the inherent goodness in others sent to show me the goodness in me. I should just admit that I’ve seen it before, like all things when the anger subsides, I see now, I have done to me what I feared you would do to me

how healthy is anyone when standing alone? new world theories say very, BUT it will feel like death at the gates of beginning.. yet, this code finds honor, still, God has grace for everyone, minus one, and we decide no contact or condemnation with those that have not fully learned how to love or express the love we feel we deserve. are…