Joining the giants (FOG removal)

I got to get rid of some things .. the things that simply don’t Speak Life .. the alcohol and cigarettes, the undercover narcissist that cries on demand when her validation is depleted accessing my love, attention and money.. “Take time”… check out?

No, I can’t just check out. Sure, surrounding myself with things, luxuries, might present a solid starting place for conversation but it is only light that touches the frame and builds intimacy. Something brave about real intimacy. I don’t want to have to tell anyone that.. but I will. The new towels and sheets for this new life.. well I’m going to have to learn to love them alone. I am loving after all.

I use the word sometimes to mean right now and that is more honest than I’ve been in a long time.. I use the words some people or we when I really mean me, so why not move back into that building and layering of truths. It’s good to be fluid but right now I need to absolute in truth and flexible in experience. Right now I need me to show up for me.

What might that look like? Well, right now it’s about ideas and action. I know a girl that does healthy videos about edibles she creates so even though I don’t know her very well I’m going to ask her to teach me how to do videos too. I want to show others the magic of a well built meal while sharing my truths about recovery from my almost too many…