Fighter talk

I guess I should apologize better. When you said touch is your love language I’ll admit, I wish you had a different level of evolution. I think I actually thought I could work my way around to being that way too. I was once.. but I think I knew I wasn’t really communicating anything.. not the way it would take me over. So now I’m taking down that Christmas tree and your out there 2 days removed giving yourself in your favorite way of speaking.

It’s like a light came on and went out at the very same time. I still have all that canvas I bought last year but never opened. I haven’t thought of speaking in a year.

What could be said other than .. I was wrong. What else could be said besides I don’t want to waste these years.. or days. How many do I have? What could be said besides I am here for something other than me… funny..I guess I talked everyone else into the very same thing. Don’t use words like family. I won’t use a word like family.

They will judge these words and buzz them with crazy making. They will tell you nothing of the truth and it will be a complete confession. So you only look once into that yesterday with all the forgivable fire.. and you learn how to grow again. This isn’t a very busy street after all. We all don’t need to slither inside ourselves.

You can be smart enough to see it. Self involved slithering. Seeing it isn’t…