A lack of dentity

Are you moving in reverse if while standing still new revelations occur? If a decision is made, but you get new information about yourself do you get a do over? Trust me I’m not saying anything different than things I’ve said before but this new look at myself, we’ll let’s just say now that it’s my feelings I’m paying attention to and not the absence of anyone else’s feelings .. I am able in ways I have never imagined.

Able

I am able.

And alive

I am not an imposter and things have moved into proportion. What we give power to.. as if we have power to give. No, every instance every encounter is a chance to create something.. power isn’t required

So maybe we’re all creating and some of my experience is that I have created a world in which relationship means something other than being there, finding joy, and remembering there are more moments coming. Like blades of grass. Imagine if we had to count our moments or had a ledger of moments.. we wouldn’t squander them with drugs or anger..jealousy and ego. the payoff has shrunk to nothing. So why focus on the things we wish we could change and instead spend those moments doing or being? body work has taught me what is in the shadow of my being. I doubt anger is the presence of I. It is not the presence of I, is it? it is not.

These moments should be spent in the presence of I, without the dentity in the shadow. the shadow covers others in ways we don’t intend.

you be in the presence of you and I will remain in the pesence of I

art credit: Yan Xinyue (Chinese, b. 1992) The Shower, 2017 Oil on canvas