4. flow (break surf)

things are changing so rapidly. it is as if space is being created for everything I need. I’m blown away. so I wanted to count a few things. like the righteous anger than leads to great upheaval.

forgiving is different. I read something written for me many years ago. the first time I read it in real time I didnt see how vulnerable the author was being. it is true what they say about how we can never tell the wounds some people carry. I think she plainly saw the change in her life as something automatic. man how everyone has grown past that naïveté. I miss the promise of those early days. the way I cried to have finally arrived. I was relieved and critical and afraid. really can’t change any of that.

I keep burning pages. how many more do I have to burn?..( the answer is in this structure here). it is only what it is because what you feel about it makes it so. these few sentences have taken hours off my life, but in all fairness, acknowledging the greatest of Duran Duran’s the Chuaffer on Rio (1982), helps me understand again what musings are. I’ve been in love with losing love.. is this ever going to change?

a few insights

sentences are not chord progressions. I don’t speak like I did when I was a kid. making up a history, making up a reason for the time spent away. my story isn’t as important as the impact of the moment I am in…